The Good.. The Bad.. The Ugly..

I stated in the begininng of this blog that I wasn't always going to write about weight, and this is one of those times. I just need to write tonight as I'm stressed.

First, the good. My ass has lost 3lbs!! Yes I'm happy about that. I haven't had the chance to join Weight Watchers as I will explain later on. I keep thinking that once I am able to that and have that support I will lose much more. I have been able to keep drinking my water, I have slipped every now and then on eating but all in all doing pretty good.

Now, the bad. Nothing to do with weight. I am soooooooo stressed today. I actually sat in my car and cried. I DON'T CRY! I feel like I am juggling so many different things. I cried because I felt like "when is it my turn"? When is it my turn to just have a complete nervous breakdown? When is it my turn to have someone take care of me? On top of taking care of my kids and husband, I am taking care of my mother too. My husband is going through anxiety attacks and depression and my mother is just all messed up. So I sat at the doctors office with my mom today for 2 hours, then spent another 2 hours grocery shopping just to have Will call me and tell me he was really depressed and didn't want to get out of bed with all 3 kids at home. I grocery shopped today as Will is working all weekend and I really don't feel like taking all 3 kids shopping. So as I rushed through the produce section to get home and when I got home the place looked like a bomb went off. So I went out to the car to "get the groceries out of the car" and cried. I feel awful bitching about it but I am just exhausted and need a break. I know that there is so many other things going on in the world that are so much worse that what I'm dealing with.

Now for the ugly. I cannot end this on a nice note as today I was completely mortified. I was listening to my favorite radio station and they were talking about the horrible earthquake in Haiti. Then they were talking about Pat Robertson and how he believed that this happened because Haiti made a pact with the devil and this was the wrath of god because of it. Really? How can the world produce such ingnorance? Whether it was the "wrath of god" or not how can someone have no empathy for how those people are suffering? I am very sad for the suffering that people are enduring over there. What makes Pat Robertson so special that he knows that god is wiping Haiti out. I know that everyone has the right to have their own beliefs and I believe that god is a forgiving god. I will say a prayer tonight for the people who have lost their lives, families, homes and their whole world in Haiti and I will say a prayer that Pat Robertson will see that god has beautiful things in store for the Haitian people one day.

Now I am off to drink my second glass of wine....